I got some good news about my clients. Two of my contracts have been extended. This is good news! Brenda and I celebrated with barbecue for her and grilled tofu for me. The restaurant has vegan greens and biscuits. And they deliver! Yum!
Until tomorrow...
Saturday, January 10, 2015
Friday, January 9, 2015
TRIP TO THE MUSEUM
Today Brenda and I went to the museum. We bought tickets a few months ago to see a special exhibit and today was the day. It was a smaller exhibit than I expected. When we were done we decided to go out for lunch. It was early since the exhibit took such a short time. We went to a cafe that overlooked a pleasant site.
It was nice to play hooky in the middle of the day.
Until tomorrow...
It was nice to play hooky in the middle of the day.
Until tomorrow...
Thursday, January 8, 2015
MANSPREADING
Okay, I need to talk about "manspreading." If you have not heard about it, it is men who spread their legs wide, into a sort of V-shaped slouch, effectively occupying two, sometimes even three, seats on mass transit. It has become such a phenomenon in NYC that the city is doing a whole campaign targeting men.
As a woman, I hate it when men sit with their legs apart because I don't like having a man's leg against mine. I don't know you and I don't want to be that intimate with you. I have noticed this "spreading" for years. Like men need to air things out or something. I find it so rude.
I hear other cities are doing things to stop the spread of the "manspread".
Until tomorrow...
As a woman, I hate it when men sit with their legs apart because I don't like having a man's leg against mine. I don't know you and I don't want to be that intimate with you. I have noticed this "spreading" for years. Like men need to air things out or something. I find it so rude.
I hear other cities are doing things to stop the spread of the "manspread".
Until tomorrow...
Wednesday, January 7, 2015
HARD TO POST
I have been having a hard time posting. Since my friend died, it has been hard to think about things and post them on a blog. I would have thought it would be easier but I don't seem to have the desire to do much. Life just seems to be in black and white these days.
I know it will get better with time.
Until tomorrow...
I know it will get better with time.
Until tomorrow...
Tuesday, January 6, 2015
BRENDA'S CHRISTMAS PRESENT ARRIVED
Well Brenda's Christmas present arrived. Just in time for MLK Day! I ordered an umbrella for Brenda for Christmas from Target. I wanted to pick it up in the store. I got an email back the next day saying it was unavailable. I panicked and ordered another umbrella from Target and they said it would arrive on 12/26. Okay, the day after Christmas. No big deal.
The next day I went to the same Target and the original umbrella I ordered was sitting right there on the shelf. Sure, Target, it was unavailable! I bought it. Now Brenda would have something under the tree!
Now the other umbrella arrived very late. Brenda opened it and it has a little hole in it and one of the spoke ends came off. Even if she wanted it, it has to get returned.
The downside to internet shopping.
Until tomorrow...
The next day I went to the same Target and the original umbrella I ordered was sitting right there on the shelf. Sure, Target, it was unavailable! I bought it. Now Brenda would have something under the tree!
Now the other umbrella arrived very late. Brenda opened it and it has a little hole in it and one of the spoke ends came off. Even if she wanted it, it has to get returned.
The downside to internet shopping.
Until tomorrow...
Monday, January 5, 2015
GOT LUCKY SOME HELP
Tonight I took Lucky to her behavior appointment. Adopting Lucky has been a challenge. She is a sweet dog who has obviously been abused. If you were ever to meet her you would think she is the most sweet and adorable dog. She acts like a puppy (people ask me all the time if she is a puppy) and she has enough energy for three dogs.
Unfortunately soon after bringing her home it was evident that Lucky had many issues that we were unprepared to handle. The agency that adopted her out was unable to help us at first so we were left hanging in the wind. When we finally got some help, it took many weeks for us to get some control of the situation. The biggest problem at that time was Lucky being aggressive about food. If you met her now you would be surprised that she ever had a problem with food.
Over the last two and one half years Lucky has started to resource guard me. That means she thinks I am a resource that is more important than anything else and she needs to protect it. She protects me from Brenda and Happi. It has been a very unhappy house with growling and barking.
At the behavior appointment tonight I had to explain all of her behaviors. I had a short video of her growling at Happi for the doctor to see. Then she told me how to deal with the behaviors.
The first thing we are doing is putting Lucky on doggy prozac. I resisted this when we first got her but now I don't think we can continue living with her with all this anxiety and stress she has. She was a nervous wreck at the appointment. I have never seen her this way. Shaking and not sitting still. The doctor seemed concerned. We have also put her on doggy zanax. This may be temporary until the prozac kicks in. It takes Prozac at least two weeks to take effect. They also suggested using a Dap collar again but we decided to hold off for right now. We don't want to do too much at once.
We are also doing some behavior modifications. I have to walk her more often, keep her on a leash in the house, play work games with her and use nothing for free. She has a new life ahead of her. I need to buy a work toy. It is a toy that you put treats in it and the dog has to work to find the treat.
We start tomorrow! We need to fix this problem. The doctor says this situation is fixable. Yay!
Until tomorrow...
Unfortunately soon after bringing her home it was evident that Lucky had many issues that we were unprepared to handle. The agency that adopted her out was unable to help us at first so we were left hanging in the wind. When we finally got some help, it took many weeks for us to get some control of the situation. The biggest problem at that time was Lucky being aggressive about food. If you met her now you would be surprised that she ever had a problem with food.
Over the last two and one half years Lucky has started to resource guard me. That means she thinks I am a resource that is more important than anything else and she needs to protect it. She protects me from Brenda and Happi. It has been a very unhappy house with growling and barking.
At the behavior appointment tonight I had to explain all of her behaviors. I had a short video of her growling at Happi for the doctor to see. Then she told me how to deal with the behaviors.
The first thing we are doing is putting Lucky on doggy prozac. I resisted this when we first got her but now I don't think we can continue living with her with all this anxiety and stress she has. She was a nervous wreck at the appointment. I have never seen her this way. Shaking and not sitting still. The doctor seemed concerned. We have also put her on doggy zanax. This may be temporary until the prozac kicks in. It takes Prozac at least two weeks to take effect. They also suggested using a Dap collar again but we decided to hold off for right now. We don't want to do too much at once.
We are also doing some behavior modifications. I have to walk her more often, keep her on a leash in the house, play work games with her and use nothing for free. She has a new life ahead of her. I need to buy a work toy. It is a toy that you put treats in it and the dog has to work to find the treat.
We start tomorrow! We need to fix this problem. The doctor says this situation is fixable. Yay!
Until tomorrow...
Sunday, January 4, 2015
HAVING A HARD TIME
I am having a harder time than I thought I would with my friend's death. I have found myself crying at the weirdest times. Driving in my car, in the shower, in my sleep.
Part of what I could not write about previously is that my friend Natalie didn't just pass away; she committed suicide. This loss has been very hard for me to process.
When someone dies of a long illness, if you are lucky you have a chance to say goodbye and process their passing. When someone is very old you know it is inevitable that they will pass away some day. But when someone dies suddenly there is no way to get ready for that news. When someone commits suicide there is so much stuff that goes along with it: anger, guilt, sadness, the feeling like you could have done something, a feeling that you didn't do enough.
Last night I had a dream with Natalie in it where we were sitting around talking, then she was gone and I was crying. I wasn't sure if I was asleep or awake but when I opened my eyes they were wet. The dream was so real. I would have sworn it was real. It didn't make me feel better; it made me sad.
Intellectually I know time will make it better but right now it hurts and I am sad.
Until tomorrow...
Part of what I could not write about previously is that my friend Natalie didn't just pass away; she committed suicide. This loss has been very hard for me to process.
When someone dies of a long illness, if you are lucky you have a chance to say goodbye and process their passing. When someone is very old you know it is inevitable that they will pass away some day. But when someone dies suddenly there is no way to get ready for that news. When someone commits suicide there is so much stuff that goes along with it: anger, guilt, sadness, the feeling like you could have done something, a feeling that you didn't do enough.
Last night I had a dream with Natalie in it where we were sitting around talking, then she was gone and I was crying. I wasn't sure if I was asleep or awake but when I opened my eyes they were wet. The dream was so real. I would have sworn it was real. It didn't make me feel better; it made me sad.
Intellectually I know time will make it better but right now it hurts and I am sad.
Until tomorrow...
Saturday, January 3, 2015
WENT TO SEE THE HOBBIT #3
Today I took my neighbor's kid to see The Hobbit: The Battle of the Five Armies. It is the third movie in the trilogy. It was exciting but much more violent than the other three. It was funny to go to a movie with a 13 year old. Most of the time I have spent with him was at our home watching sports. He is usually with Brenda and not too much with me.
I tried very hard to get him to talk. I asked him questions about school and movies and music. If you have spent much time around teenagers you know what I got. Uh, sure, yup, no, nope. It was hard to get him to actually talk about something. I think he was being shy which was weird since I have known him since he was like 3 years old. He talks a blue streak with Brenda.
Anyway, I finally got him talking about music and movies a bit. I just kept talking and asking questions. We both liked the movie a lot.
Until tomorrow...
Friday, January 2, 2015
MISTAKES HAPPEN
I don't usually talk about my work but today is an exception. Today I made a mistake. It was a mistake because someone didn't do what they said they were going to do and I didn't double check. It was totally my fault.
I made my mistake and that caused a torrent of other mistakes.
I made my mistake we will call X. X happened and I called company ABC to correct it. It should have taken ABC about 5 minutes to fix it. The guy at ABC fixed it and the ABC's computer made a mistake. Instead of correcting the mistake in year 2015, ABC computer "corrected" the mistake in 2014. There was no mistake in 2014. The guy at ABC company now had to contact the tech support guys at ABC to find out why the computer "corrected" a mistake in 2014 that never happened but didn't correct a mistake in 2015 that did. After fixing that, while correcting the 2014 mistake, the ABC guy made another mistake causing more chaos.
Hours later the whole mess was corrected and my original mistake X was corrected correctly. It was interesting to the cycle of events when one mistake happens. I just wish I wasn't so anxiety-ridden about my client's work being messed up, I probably would have laughed about the whole thing.
Until tomorrow...
I made my mistake and that caused a torrent of other mistakes.
I made my mistake we will call X. X happened and I called company ABC to correct it. It should have taken ABC about 5 minutes to fix it. The guy at ABC fixed it and the ABC's computer made a mistake. Instead of correcting the mistake in year 2015, ABC computer "corrected" the mistake in 2014. There was no mistake in 2014. The guy at ABC company now had to contact the tech support guys at ABC to find out why the computer "corrected" a mistake in 2014 that never happened but didn't correct a mistake in 2015 that did. After fixing that, while correcting the 2014 mistake, the ABC guy made another mistake causing more chaos.
Hours later the whole mess was corrected and my original mistake X was corrected correctly. It was interesting to the cycle of events when one mistake happens. I just wish I wasn't so anxiety-ridden about my client's work being messed up, I probably would have laughed about the whole thing.
Until tomorrow...
Thursday, January 1, 2015
FOUND A WAY TO TAKE A BATH
I found a way to take a bath. I have wanted to take a bath for days. Partially because I have been sad and when I am sad I want to take a bath. But also because it has been unseasonably cold. I was so cold yesterday that I took a second shower. Something that is so bad considering we have a water shortage. I just needed to get warm and a hot shower seemed like the only way.
I filled the bathtub with hot but not too hot water. I didn't put any bubbles or bath salts in the water. I got in and immediately put my bad leg with the cut up out of the water. I took the whole bath with my leg out of the water except the few minutes when I washed the cut. I got out and put my bandage back on. I can't wait to stop having to wear this bandage all the time. It is keeping my cut clean and uninfected but it is annoying and time consuming to take on and off. At least I don't have to do it twice a day anymore.
I enjoyed my bath very much. It warmed my bones and my soul.
Until tomorrow...
I filled the bathtub with hot but not too hot water. I didn't put any bubbles or bath salts in the water. I got in and immediately put my bad leg with the cut up out of the water. I took the whole bath with my leg out of the water except the few minutes when I washed the cut. I got out and put my bandage back on. I can't wait to stop having to wear this bandage all the time. It is keeping my cut clean and uninfected but it is annoying and time consuming to take on and off. At least I don't have to do it twice a day anymore.
I enjoyed my bath very much. It warmed my bones and my soul.
Until tomorrow...
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