GOING TO BED EARLY

 I am very tired and don’t feel that well. I’m going to bed early. If you think 6pm is early. 

Lucky and I went for a walk around the block but I think it was too much. 

Until tomorrow…

GOT TO TALK TO DOCTOR

Trigger alert: if medical things make you queasy you might want to skip this post.

I woke up this morning to bloody pee. Yes, my bloody pee. Also horribly painful pee. I called the doctors office as soon as they opened and they fit me in later that morning. When I arrived I checked in and the person at the front desk asked me for my co-pay. Then she said "I see you still have an outstanding co-pay but I guess I won't bring that up.  I heard you the other day.  I don't want you to hit me." WTH? I paid my co-pay. 

I saw the doctor (which was a surprise since I thought I was seeing a physician asst) and she talked to me. Yes, it seemed like a UTI. They ran a test that I will hear about on Monday. She gave me antibiotics and a magic medicine that numbs the area and makes your pee turn florescent orange. 

Then I told her what happened to me over the last few visits. How the office manager trapped me in her office to chastise me for not paying my co-pay, the front person asking if I was going to hit her and then not showing me empathy when I was crying. She seemed appalled. I took responsibility for my part of being upset and in pain and not myself. She said her HR person was out that day but she assured me she would be following up. She did not want me to leave her practice and was upset I would even think that way. I felt better that I spoke up. 

Then I came home and my nice dog walker went and got my prescription at the pharmacy where no one is wearing masks again. 

Today there was an article in The Washington Post about how more vaccinated immunocompromised folks are getting COVID now with this strain. Many are ending up in the hospital. 

I spent the rest of the day watching TV, drinking water and peeing. Fun times! 

Until tomorrow...

COLONOSCOPY SCHEDULED

 I had my appointment with my Gut Doctor today. It was short since all we really did was set an appointment for my colonoscopy. She explained that starting Monday they will be requiring all patients to wear a mask during colonoscopies. The staff are already wearing masks. 

I actually ate dinner tonight after last night not eating much of anything. I had such a hard time yesterday and last night. I didn't get any sleep last night. It was really hard. I am feeling better today. I can't wait to get to the bottom of this situation. 

I made vegan ramen noodles with broccoli, mushrooms with peanut sauce. 

 I appreciate everyone of my friends and family who are checking in on me to see how I am doing. 

Until tomorrow...

TOUGH DAY

I think the test yesterday inflamed my system and made it that today is very tough day. I tried to get things done today but it was all very difficult. Had a very nice phone call from a friend and I sat through a webinar.

I wish this was better news and I'm trying to stay optimistic. I have another virtual doctor appointment tomorrow. 

Until tomorrow...

FIRST TEST COMPLETE

 I won't go through all the gory details. I had the test done and it showed nothing. No cysts. No growths. Now I need to go to the gut doctor to see what the plan is there. I assume it will be a colonoscopy. 

It was a hard doctor visit and made even harder by an office manager who squabbled with me about a co-payment issue. I said I wanted to deal with it at home online but she insisted I go into her very small office to discuss it. I finally said I would pay it if it got me out of this small space. I paid it and insisted they give me a breakdown of the invoice. I looked at the invoice and it showed that I paid a visit that I already paid. I got very angry. This was why I wanted to deal with it at home. I had to go back to the office manager and get her to figure it out. This time I did it with the door open and me standing in the doorway. She finally did figure it out and wrote me a letter stating I already paid the old invoice in case it comes up again. She claims it will not come up again but it has been coming up since last November. I left the office and got in my car and cried. It was such a hard appointment and then this billing issue that didn't have to take place made it so miserable. Also still no resolution to my pain. 

I then had to come home and deal with the continuation of my phone issue. It is working but I needed to deal with some part of it. 

I made a little ramen, broccoli and mushroom for dinner. 

 I was exhausted after all of that. I did a little work and then I think I fell asleep for a bit. It was an emotional and tiring day. 

Until tomorrow...

ONE DAY UNTIL MY FIRST TEST

 I spent the day trying not to think about my upcoming medical test. Luckily the issue with my phone not working helped keep me busy. Around lunchtime I finally got a text from the phone company telling me a tech was on the way to fix the phone. It turns out that the phone line was disconnected at the juncture. Whether it was cut or unplugged, I am not sure.The effect was that my phone was cut off. It took about 30 minutes and the phone rang. It was back on and working. 

I am going to sleep early again since I have to wake up early again.

Until tomorrow...

FELT BETTER AND THEN...

Today started out pretty good. I got three loads of dog towels washed and dried. I pile them up so I can wash them all at once and then wash out the washing machine after. Dogs use so many towels for baths, when they come in from the rain, Lucky sleeps on one on my bed and I keep one on the couch where she lays down. They need to be rotated when they get dirty or smell. I have lots of old towels that I use. 

Then I did my daily guided meditation in the backyard. It was a nice sunny but breezy day. I had planned to sit outside and read but it was too breezy for me. 

Then I started to not feel well again. I guess I overdid it again. I went to bed at 6:30 pm. I feel better laying down. 

Until tomorrow...

I'LL WRITE MORE TOMORROW

I am not feeling well. I am going to sleep. I'll write more tomorrow. 

Until tomorrow...

HAPPY EARTH DAY!🌍

I hope you had a wonderful Earth Day!  I spent the day conserving water and electricity. 

I got a surprise today when a person I spoke to a month ago contacted me out of the blue to hire me today. We already had our first meeting. It was a nice surprise to get more business. 

I felt pretty good this morning but by dinner time I felt not so good. I had a problem sitting up and went to bed. I felt much better lying down. 

I did a 17 minute guided forest meditation today and I am really starting to like it. These little vacations in my mind are relaxing. 

I'm sure it will be a better day tomorrow. 

Until tomorrow...

UPDATE ON CURRENT MEDICAL ISSUE

 I got up early and went to the doctor. I didn't get a certain answer but I did get some answers. I most likely do not have cancer which was my biggest concern. Her answer when I asked was "I am not even considering that."

I have been given a list of things to do. I have to get an ultrasound to rule out ovarian cysts. Then I am going to a gynourologist to check my estrogen levels and other things. Then I need to get a mammogram. 

For the Plan B I am seeing my Gut Doctor to move forward with getting my gut checked. 

The thought is that I may have ovarian cysts. I may have low estrogen. I may have two things going on at once: a urinary thing and a gut thing. I may have interstitial cystitis. There are no answers yet but a plan to figure it all out. 

I feel much better having a plan. Some of the plan will take many weeks so I will not have answers quickly. 

I made a tasty salad for dinner. I wasn't very hungry but I ate it anyway. It had romaine, avocado, cucumber, apple, and mushrooms. 

The rest of the day was resting, watching an Arthritis Foundation webinar and notifying friends and family. 

Until tomorrow...